靈感是M&C的OST其中一首Corelli-adagio from concerto grosso op.6 No.8 in G minor
副標:the night prayer
Jack opened his eyes.
It was dinner's time, and before supper everyone has to pray.
The prayer was a bit too lengthy, so Jack opened his eyes.
He saw Stephen, Dr. Stephen Maturin, sitting by his side.
Stephen was staring at some little ants trooping across the table, studying them.
Their eyes met.
There was a second or two, Jack couldn't tell, only silence.
The prayer ended, gone the last "amen".
Stephen winked at him, then he smirked, sheepishly.
Jack could vaguely recall the prayer the dishes of the dinner,
but he could so vividly remember the sound of waves thunping gently against the sloop,
the salty wind of the sea breezed through the window...and Stephen.
When the moon was lingering high above and the bell had rang its third ring,
"Thank God I can have such a good friend sailing with me. Thank you, Stephen. Thank you, Lord..."
Jack lay in his hammock, murmuring before he fell asleep.
just being sentimental, ignore me
sometimes thought everything's just fine
and sometimes everything feels so wrong
as if everybody, everything's being is to torture, and only to torture, in the most sadistic way
like the devil, smiling so sweet, sitting on bedside, and singing nightmares to our sleep
there are angels, too
but we're all tended to overlook angels while things're fine
and stare at devils as if it could help fix everything right while we know things're wrong
but even knowing there're angels by my side, those devils're... they're always there
the devil's always there
GOD, please, i never wish life to be easier, but please take my sentiment away
maybe life isn't harsh enough for me, so i have to suffer from it for years
maybe it's enough to me? maybe i couldn't take it anymore?
the answer is still no, why? why still i can take it?
i don't even know exactly what the question is!
the being of human, the being of earth, the being of the whole universe
can they be erased? what would it be like if there's eventually nothing?
even nothing this very word mean's nothing
what would it be like? will there be any difference?
still... there are so many brilliant things in this world that i haven't met, haven't enjoyed
this is out of the gluttonous of my mind, which is the essence of human nature...
maybe love is what i can believe, GOD is love, after all
in the world of rational, love itself is irrational... a factor of uncertainty
so weird, i wish i could get to know it better when i *grown up*
till now it is what keeps me function working, or at least i thought so
ha ha, though i can be so senimental, but the emotions'll go away, momentarily or permanently
have some music, big girl!
then face the music, turn off the music and go study, there're exams await...